Don’t we ever get tired of being pretentious? Okay, sorry. First let me put you on the same page as I’m in. But the thing is, it’s quite tough for me as well, to precisely bring up the context, I maybe thinking about. Everything is in a hanging kind of state. What I mean by that is, I can’t put before you in a plate, any of my single thoughts, and make you digest that. This kinda statement might sound condescending somehow, but believe me, I’m just trying to season the current mood on these lines. It’s like the starters, you’re given at a barbecue’s table and then leaving no room for the main course for you to intake. Now, this analogy may create inside you a temptation to order something on Zomato, as you’re unable to make a visit particularly on barbecue due to this very inevitable situation. But, I think, you may reconsider, and want some breads with an irregular layer of butter spread on it. And, yeah, definitely some tea. One thing, I accidentally happened to like about breads is the subtle taste it has got. Oh! It seems, I have deviated from the very question I asked. Or, maybe I’m just trying to keep before you the daily mood that spans my day, until something fills me with disgust, and kills my taste for everything, in that very moment.
All started with a “hi-hey” and then an admission of one’s currents problems. And now that I’m writing, I must confess that, from the very first lines, I happened to feel that there was some pretending going on. But it resides in our human nature to pretend something to a certain extent. And this very thought, prevented me from giving it a second thought. It’s again quite normal to have a thirst for experimenting, when we talk to someone who’s a stranger. Hence, I did convey my thoughts, which I thought has the ability to make that person find solace in that very situation. And, then, we were under a cycle of sharing and appreciation. Ugh man! I don’t think, I want to remember the whole thing. Just want to say one thing, in this whole conversation, I never had said any word that could make anyone use the word “harsh” against me. Also, I should say, the person even said, that he/she respects me. And, now I know, it was a fake thing, one could say. These things just keep on justifying that, first impressions are never fully wrong. So, yeah, a lesson, that sometimes a quest to get intimate and become selfless can engulf you with disgust in the end.
With no one to open the doors, into their home of talks.
Still, you kept treading softly,
Crushing the weathered and lonely, fallen leaves,
And they whispered to you,
With that every step, you took in return.
Yes, believe me, that’s the story. That’s the story of all those persons, who once felt lonely but kept interacting with all the things that hadn’t meant much to them, earlier. Maybe we all forget to see the “lots” that remain silent while we keep dancing on this busy thread of life.
So, my friend, to feel lonely doesn’t mean to be alone. It’s like a gift, that you got unknowingly; when you suddenly feel that people don’t care for you or don’t try to feel, what’s going on inside of you. So, eventually, you got a time for introspection and to add more dimensions to your life. The warmth of the coffee cup, that was forgotten long ago, has now found a way to resonate with your thoughts. The sound of the dripping rain drops, has now started to have a relaxing effect on you. With this, all the small things that went unnoticed, started becoming a part of your life and kept telling you that, what you say to be “lonely” is just an “escape” for you, to once again take a moment, to enjoy things differently.
Last of all, maybe it’s looking like, you’re missing those talks and your companies, but believe me, when this void gets filled up once again, you’re going to miss these days. It’s just came as a balance, not as another exception. And, it’s also okay to feel lonely when you’re among many. Feeling isolated even from the loved ones, are also normal for this time being. Just don’t fight with what you feel. And they will settle.
These days, you may think of giving up on all your hopes, that you had accumulated once. So, let me tell you one thing; Nothing has actually changed. Everything has its own way to fall in its place. You just have to wait and live through these days, which again, are nothing different from the earlier ones. Maybe it’s another season of your life. And who knows, you may understand something beautiful while trying to find solace in this loneliness.
Everything that happens, can affect you, only according to your perceptions and acceptance. This time is a part of your life, with many things to learn.
So maybe, grab a pen and start filling all the blank pages, with the words that you feel now and believe me, soon you will call yourself happy.
And at the end, enjoy yourself with the below attached video, (By Jonny Sun)
